I would've been a better lover

I would've been a better lover

If I wasn't taught to love this world.

I would've been your angel

If I had closed my eyes to the pain of others.

I would've made you proud-

Blessed before your fellow mates,

If I'd stayed home, cooking and cleaning;

While I let go of what my heart desired.

I would've made you proud

If I'd put away my passions for you.

There would've been more gold in my locker,

More peace in my life as well

If I wasn't taught to share.

But I chose to be who I am.

And yes; I didn't become your honey!

Soon you might find a sweet-heart -

Pampering you day and night,

Elating your spirits with love outpoured.

But you will never see the world I saw. 

The world of real happiness, the world of realities.

And once the glits and glam ceases

You will search for the meaning -

The meaning of these years spent- 

Spent in the name of life.

And by then, by mercy

I would've fulfilled the purpose of this life.

The purpose the woman who bore me saw.

The purpose the Creator fulfilled through me.